Being emotionally mature and in control and chill are vastly different and honestly I’d rather be fucking crazy and my true self than chill for some jack ass that can’t handle it. Chill seems to be living a hidden life. A lie. A facade adapted from inept and emotionally incapable sociopathic rejects who care not about how their actions effect others. Narcissistic maybe? Be Gabbi as you are and send a big Fuck off to anyone who can’t appreciate it.