Wow, you have put into words what I’ve been feeling for approximately the last 6 years. It’s so hard to engage with even the things that I love that I’ve mostly forgotten what those things are. I used to read over 50 books a year, now I’m lucky if I read two or three.
So far, what’s getting me out of my slump is tabletop role playing games like Dungeons and Dragons, and my theory is that it works because they require interacting with other people. I can summon enough energy to act like a “real” person in front of other people, and that pretending lets me out of the muck and mire long enough to actually enjoy myself. I don’t know if it’ll work for you, but I can feel myself on the mend, so to speak. I’m solidly on the upswing now, and it feels good to be able to enjoy even just this one thing.
If you’re interested, hit me up on Twitter. I’m thinking of running a campaign. It’ll be my first, so bear with me.
Thanks for writing this.
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