Attention Deficit Disorder
I have Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD). I never had any problems growing up, but over the last couple of weeks the symptoms have been obvious. I am able to recall large events that happened but not the specifics. For example, I spent > 3hrs coding a feature and pushing it live. Few days later, my colleague asked for more details about this feature but I couldn’t recall any specifics. For a moment, I even told her that I never worked on it. I experienced the same problem in few other occasions as well. Following a bit of introspection, here is my conclusion:
- Lack of attention: I will have a lot of tabs open in Chrome and when writing email, I will suddenly switch to Facebook and lose track of task. From Facebook, I will jump on to Slack to read a message, then to some coding and back to email all within 2 minutes. I have always had this problem and I have blogged about this before. But it seems to be pronounced these days accompanied by other symptoms.
- Anxiety: I get way too anxious about little things these days. I have stopped taking the elevator because I get uncomfortably anxious waiting for the elevator. Even if I take the elevator, from the moment I step foot inside, my anxiousness increases exponentially until the door opens at my floor. This is a very recent problem. I have never had any sort of anxiety in my life before.
- Pre-occupied: All throughout the day, my brain seems to be occupied as though I am thinking about something very deep and profound. In fact, I am simply walking to a coffee shop.
- Binge-eating: I have been binge-eating quite a bit. I always ate a lot, but never in binge. I eat to reduce my anxiety, and I eat too much too fast because I am hyperactive.
I am not stressed, I am not depressed, I am not addicted to alcohol, nicotine or drugs. I lack attention. I have a strong feeling that this is caused by information overload from social networking sites like Facebook or Twitter. Scrolling through endless streams of text, images and videos overwhelms my brain.