It is April of 2020. It is, I’m frequently reminded by social media, autism awareness month, autistic acceptance month, or even autistic advocacy month, depending upon who you ask. Every year for the past three years that this month has rolled around — ever since I found out I was autistic — I feel a sense of gnawing, dread, and nervous excitement. I feel a vague uncertainty, a hesitancy.
I feel I must have something to say on the matter: I am autistic after all, and tons of advocates are making blog posts, writing informative material, selling T-shirts to support…
(In honor of Autism Acceptance Month, 2018. This post was originally published on thesanarchist.wordpress.com, my old blog.)
Living life as an autistic person is an exercise in contradictions, every minute of waking. Life feels as though it were an elaborate game designed specifically to torture you.
Give her heightened senses and an above-average appreciation of beauty; let her find it where no one else seems to — and then punish her by giving her sensory overload and meltdowns.
Give her a burning, aching desire to connect with other people, an endless capacity to feel their pain, sorrow, joy…
Autistic twenty-two-year-old writer and illustrator, very tired, always drinking tea