Twenty

I test drove a car once

A VW Polo from 1993

Registration plate ending PEA

A car almost as old as me.

Wearing a coat coloured like rust

I drove off its dust

and laughed as you took a video

of me behind the wheel.

The garage didn’t ask for my license

so we just went. Why not?

I said, shall we elope?

In my mind. In reality, I said

Shall we do the shopping?

Save us cycling with rucksacks overpacked.

I test drove a car once

A VW Polo from 1993

Registration plate ending PEA

A car almost as old as me.

As I got used to non power steering

I found the wind in my hair through the open window

Healing.

My freedom returning

And my inherent desire for risk, yearning.

It’s grey-blue body was not perfect

Flaws peppered the sides and the bonnet

But it was P-E-A; it was me

It was everything I’d been in want of,

Minus the insurance fee.

I test drove a car once

A VW Polo from 1993

Registration plate ending PEA

A car almost as old as me.

It reminded me of my age, my youth

And truth.

Each experience can be a lesson

Freedom is out there but daunting

Missed opportunities can be haunting

And sometimes, you should just take the chance

And go.