Sarah Ross1.25 yearsA year and a quarter. I don’t know what it means, but it hits me hard. I have pancakes for breakfast and suddenly feel sick and am not…Oct 14, 2019Oct 14, 2019
Sarah RossTryingTrying to talk about Fuller is like trying to describe my own heartbeat or skeletal system. That which kept me alive, was the invisible…Jul 30, 2019Jul 30, 2019
Sarah RossTimeEarly on, someone told me that I wouldn’t remember much of this year, that my brain wouldn’t be able to retain everything that happened.Jul 13, 20192Jul 13, 20192
Sarah RossFiTonight, for the first time, I felt you gone. Like a skin memory, like electricity around my bones, I felt you gone. My body understood…Jun 2, 2019Jun 2, 2019
Sarah RossEasyIf you can’t sleep don’t try. Don’t try to do anything. Get in a hot bath in the dark. Slip under the water and pretend there’s no you.May 23, 20191May 23, 20191
Sarah RossHallucinationsIn a dream, he crosses the Snake and tells me he wouldn’t come back, even if he could. He hugs me and it feels real. He says something…Apr 18, 2019Apr 18, 2019
Sarah RossNowThe fabric of grief has changed. At first it was heavy, tight. I was pinned to the ground at all times, and everyone could see. There’s a…Mar 13, 2019Mar 13, 2019
Sarah RossRealHe got his wisdom teeth out, he saved for a new car, he took every internship he could. He networked and emailed and wrote postcards and…Feb 14, 20191Feb 14, 20191
Sarah RossTitAn leI don’t really sleep because my mind is clenched around one thing, like a fist. The words “he’s actually gone” flow underneath everything…Dec 29, 2018Dec 29, 2018
Sarah RossIt was all a dreamForever, or for as long as you have ever been, you will float on a cloud way above the earth. Anything that threatens your voyage will…Nov 22, 20181Nov 22, 20181