The Idea of Change

Do you ever get the feeling that you just want to cry? Especially the one that’s like “I have no right or real reason to be crying, the tears are just coming and I cannot stop them?”

That happens to me on the daily.

Just the thought of people I know and truly care about moving away makes me choke up and throw a fit.

Why would you leave me hanging, all alone in this place without your hilarious presence to cling to? Or the ability to come running when I have a problem that my not mature enough self can handle? I understand that phones are a thing but they aren’t enough sometimes.

So the real question here is — when do you have to choke down your feelings, grow up, and be happy for people, even when you know it will suck for you?

I think the answer is not a WHEN answer but a WHY. It’s because you want them to be as happy as possible. To have new experiences. To love what they are doing. It’s because you know somewhere that even though there is distance they’re still gonna think about you as much as you think about them.

I’m not referring to romantic relationships, I’m just talking about friendships. And sometimes those are the hardest ones to just let go and be happy for.

So I’m hoping that I will quickly be able to let go of my selfish agenda and be truly happy for the great opportunities life throws our way. I for one am terrible at embracing change.