What Is My Problem?


What is my problem? I have a partially great family and amazing friends who I can talk about almost everything but why am I feeling so alone and lonely?

Or maybe I’m making myself alone since I don’t want to be too clingy.

Or maybe it’s the pms bitchyness or white-girl-being-white-girl.

I really don’t know, I’m fine, healthy and OK. I’m saying “Im okay” when they ask because I should be okay but why I feel like I’m not?

Everything’s just SO same that it kills me. I use the same road. I talk with the same people, I eat the same food, I take the same classes, I listen the same songs, I watch the same show. It’s just so same same same same…

And I can’t find a way to change that. I caught up with that same swamp and I can’t get out.

Also my classes started to feel like a huge dissapointment and I don’t know what to do with that too.

I try to help people when they feel down or bored or in general, I try to be there for them when they need me but why I feel like I have no one when I need them?

I use this place to get off my chest but it’s not working I guess.