I have ADHD

Definitely.

Tell-tale signs:

I have 16 tabs open. In 2 different browsers. With around 10 different unfinished tasks trying to be tackled at once.
I am antsy as fuck. Pretty much always.
I get bored easily. Of anything and everything. Even food. I seem to always leave the LAST bite. Just because.
When I hold conversations, I often have 5 layers of dialogue zooming through my head. So, upon finishing one question, we move onto another, but continue the underlaying questions, until we have some fabulous Tiramisu-esque conversation going. I’ve often had these with Gina actually!
I have around 13k unread e-mails.
It often takes me three times as long as it usually should to write a blog entry because I get distracted by searching other things.

The purpose of writing said blog is for a number of reasons. I was going to list these reasons in bullet points but that would be repeating myself. I guess it’s because I feel like my head is A JUNGLE, JUNGLE (oh no). Gah my head is literally just a manic mess. Of too much. Every. Where. Help.

Maybe I already said why I’m writing said blog? Feel like I’m continously justifying it. OH WELL.

WHY AM I WRITING LE BLOG?

To straighten the thoughts in my head.
To give Jean-mi a break from my whining
To ensure that I actually write in this as often as I possibly can (not sure if knowing that people read this incentivises me to write; probably less. But I enjoy the idea of having a collection of stories that I’ve written and that is accessible to people who may be interested in what I have to say. Or experience. Or blah. Blah.)

So yes I wanted to talk about my AHDH-ness and also about my inability to be a chill host.

If you have ever had the displeasure of being my guest, you are probably aware that I’m an awful host. I constantly feel under pressure to feed and entertain you endlessly. And I seem to think that I have much more important things to do when you’re not there (uh like sit in silence on my laptop and waste my time). And so I panic. I panic thinking AH MY GOD I’M HAVING FUN AND BEING UNPRODUCTIVE WITH MY TIME I HATE MYSELF.

Something completely irrational like that. Thank you Yanni for putting up with me.

ACL UPDATE!

2 weeks have passed by and I am able to hobble without a crutch now. Unfortunately, though, a huge mo-fucking lump has manifested above my kneecap, near my quad. I have started cycling (yesterday and today) and I feel god damn great. I am SO thankful for being able to cycle.

The little things.