Desert
I didn’t know what to expect when I was coming to Arizona, you hear stories but no one can really tell you how to feel. It’s up to you to feel how you feel and adjust accordingly as needed to the circumstance, or to change the situation completely. We always want others to be responsible but if we give away that power then what power do we have? None.
You chose your happiness, no one else can. If you think they can then you are not living in the way I believe we’re meant to. We’re meant to be an expression of God, we are that, but we often fall into line as a lemming and just go where the pack leads, or get into a groove and find our comfort zone. We’re meant to create our reality in the way we want it to be.
At the same time we are meant to go with a flow that is evident only to us, to many others to but their flow will appear differently than yours does, and it should! Each of us is meant to be a fully different expression of divinity than the one next to you or the one next to them. This is why spirituality is importan to me, to be in fullest expression of awareness, of working toward consciousness in every situation, in every aspect of our being, that is what it means to live to me.
This is why this desert is so good for me, there are aspects of it that I don’t love like the dryness (I’m a midwestern boy who is used to 100% humidity, and India has a good amount of it as well) but the spirit is fully palpable here. The level of awareness in people, in this town anyway, is greatly appreciated. And they are fucking happy, that’s not something I’m used to, but it is something I enjoy.
I’ve been studying a lot about Maa in India and her temples, ones that I’ve been to and ones that I haven’t. Reading books of scriptures, studies on cultural shifts and just looking at photos and enjoying all of it. Yes, India is still deeply in my heart and I will go back there next year. But I’m not longing for or missing it too much, mostly I’m taking these aspects of the goddess and finding them here and within me. That is the difference. Here I am able to do that, it feels supportive of that somehow, where other places outside India I’ve been recently don’t feel that way so much. People always talk about Sedona being a vortex, could that be why? There is a big energy centre here? Not sure, here they don’t talk about Sedona so much, they are content here. But elsewhere they do.
I’m not looking to find happiness elsewhere while I’m here, I’m looking for it within now, wherever I am, so it’s been nice to have it be more accessible to me here.
The more and more I adapt here I’ll be more tapped in to my mystical type writing that until now I’ve written more of here, so, coming soon…
