Computer scientist. Web developer.
Don’t try to change your feelings, just modify your thinking process and ask better questions. Instead of “what’s wrong with me?,” ask yourself “WHY do I feel this way?”
The real lesson is that you need to be aware of the mental barriers that keep you from doing what you know will improve your life so that you can actively find solutions.
Reading heals me, because it helps me make sense of the world in relation to my inner-world.