Good Decisions. Beautiful Life.

Today when I look back, I realise the mistakes were horrible. The decisions were wrong. I was treating the wrong guy with all the love and care and left the man who gave me his world. People are right! You realise when its gone. The time I realised , the time I realised I was wrong every single time when I looked at him, things just shattered. I wasn’t understanding what to do and what not. A phase where I was just repeating the mistakes and wasn’t realising I needed to stop. I wanted the wrong guy always because of the guilts. I forgot the guy who gave me the world but could never forget the times I had with him. Middle of July, August, September I felt like I need to talk to him, Apologize for every thing and just just wanted one hie and wanted to sort it out. Not having any intentions, the moment of thought of hate for me scared me, Wierd thoughts Negative thoughts struck and eagerly I wanted to talk to him. Buying some guts, I just messaged once of just a small hope of him talking to me and luckily but sadly he did reply but the talk of him not coming back was the sad part. I realised I should stop but there came a light in my heart saying “Just try getting him back” or try with the friendship. After some days of talks, we did talk then came a day we didn’t then again we did. One day, he arrived at the house, there was this big relief in the heart, A relief of beauty I could see in his eyes for me, trying not to care but something hidden. That day was the highlight of the start I was about to have with him, little uncomfort was obviously there in us because of the gaps but I learnt to not leave hope. If after giving a big scar in his life, he could come to see me then why can’t I just try? This could also be a turning point for us. Slowly we started talking again and came close. Clearing the past and asking just for a small trust I realised I wanted him in my life. Like it was a good start for my life again and maybe the best for him. The day in October we shared one kiss, I knew we are getting back and I could just understand he never stopped loving. A moment I wanted forever. That was the day he first said I love you” I wanted to hear it everyday and I don’t know it just vanished all the pain from both of our souls and we started off. We came closer day by day, he was and is the best thing in my life today. With alot of love and tears in my eyes, I could just say If he’s with me, I know I can fight the whole world. One good decision, lead to the most beautiful life today and forever. I could thank him forever and I will because if he wouldn’t maybe I wouldn’t be here today. My love for him is just growing every single day, every love song turned out for him, every morning every night just ended on one beautiful voice, Every hug I get from him is like the world, Leaning on him, getting the best hugs I know there’s no way to the sadness, life just became wonderful. His love towards me is indescribable. Endless. Eternal. Irreplaceable.