Danny Bittman thank you.
I initially supported Will Mason and Taylor Freeman when the UploadVRlawsuit from Elizabeth Scott broke in the press. Part of that support was my own fear and loss as those at Upload, including me, were suddenly thrown into pain. Careers disrupted. Plans thrown out. Clients lost. Employees leaving. The losses were sizable in the world I was around a lot and the losses still continue.
I must admit my own role in sexism in this industry and world.
I am flawed too, and am working to fix those flaws. Have I caused others pain? Yes. Does that make me happy about myself? No. Looking in the mirror is a tough thing.
The whole story about Upload probably won’t ever been told (lawyers, PR folks, and constituents force silence and/or unnatural acts, even when everyone knows that’s the wrong thing to do on a human level), but it is a place still in deep pain. Lots of loss.
When there is pain, fear, and loss, people tend not to talk and, certainly, tend not to talk well.
Particularly when investors and lawyers are forcing you to do unnatural acts. I never like being forced to be silent, and the past few months have been very uncomfortable for me, and still are. Not to mention I never personally witnessed the acts described in the lawsuit, so I don’t have a whole lot more to add to that than Danny did here.
Since the lawsuit broke I have been in a listening mode and probably will forever remain in such a role (the things I’ve heard since about how women are treated in this industry have made me feel deep pain and shame).
One thing I’ve learned is that I need to change and already have started down that road. I feel a lot less comfortable joking about sex, for instance, for the reasons Danny lays out.
To those I have hurt, I’m sorry, no matter how minor the sin. Now that I’ve been sober a couple of years I’ve seen just how hurtful simply being drunk is to many and I did worse than that due to my own selfishness.
To the community: I’m sorry about what has happened here. Danny is right, until we can have an open conversation healing won’t happen completely. Pain, loss, and fear are hard contexts to provide leadership within.
To Elizabeth: I’m sorry for adding onto any of your pain.
As to Upload I’m behind the new chief operating officer, Anne A. Ward, and am supporting her in any way I can. Tomorrow I will be meeting German entrepreneurs there and discussing the new Apple strategy, along with the future of augmented reality and you can watch that live.
As to Will and Taylor. I am still with you too. I don’t believe in throwing out your friends just because they make mistakes. Heck, if that was the case I’d never have any friends because I am deeply flawed and make mistakes all the time.
To everyone else: I’m accountable to you. If you see me participating in adding pain onto someone else, please do help me improve, and when I fall short of this bar I will aim at fixing myself and getting rid of my own ego and selfishness even more than I already have.