Don’t give up! Good on you for being brave and voicing your experiences publicly. I agree: it’s hard as shit. I used one tool that I’ll never forget, which was an online course I took about returning to work after maternity leave. Actually, it should be called a community rather than course, because that’s what it has become for me! (http://www.mindfulreturn.com/ if you’re interested). If you decide to not return to work, that’s a challenging path, too — I hope you can find a supportive group to help you on either path. Best of luck, mama!