I Wonder

As the light cascades from your soul

I wonder what your day was like when you lost your life and your body turned cold.

I wonder what struggles you endured that day.

Was it looking for a new job that paid the sub par minimum wage and wasn’t enough to clothe and feed your babies?

Was it carrying the pain of not having your father in your life that categorized you as menacing?

Or, was it the self doubt of never having been told that you are special, you are loved and that your life has value?

As the light cascades from your soul

I wonder what your day was like when you lost your life and your body turned cold

I wonder what dreams you envisioned for yourself.

Was it getting a GED and attending college?

Was it transforming your daily hustle into a legit entrepreneurial endeavor?

Or, was it marrying your true love and becoming a model father to your seeds?

As the light cascades from your soul

I wonder what your day was like when you lost your life and your body turned cold

I wonder what fears held you back that day.

Was it the idea of becoming a stereotype and never realizing your full potential for success?

Was it the hopelessness of being rejected again for being under/overqualified, not the right fit, or just not fitting in because of who you are?

Or was it the emotional upheaval of seeing your lady hold it down while society kept you down and burned out the fire in your eyes?

As the light cascades from your soul

I wonder what your day was like when you lost your life and your body turned cold.

I wonder what your thoughts were when you woke up that day.

Was it I am a descendant of kings and warriors and I can face anything that comes my way?

Was it I know I am a good guy who’s had some hard times but I have a plan to turn this shit around?

Or, was it I’m not going to die today.