Small Things

Small things can seriously impact your day when you’re chronically ill.

Bump your shoulder or toe? That’s going to throb on and off for the rest of the day. For me a toe is better than a shoulder, a toe will ache a bit but not be too bad, bumping my shoulder often means my neck and back lock up tight for days and I have to work to stretch everything out.

Sleep bad? Prepare to be exhausted and memory fogged for the rest of the day.

The last two years of being sick has been a constant readjustment around shifting symptoms and issues. Each morning is a roll call of what’s bothering me the moment I roll out of bed. What joints hurt? What’s my energy level? How sensitive are my muscles?

Then you have to add in the random things that pop up during the day. I like to tweak my wrists and fingers on bad days opening doors. It’s out of nowhere, you reach to open something and flinch as a joint protests and sends pain radiating up your arm. For the rest of the day I’ll be forced to baby that joint to keep the pain from increasing.

Sudden stress or schedule changes makes everything fifty percent harder adding new layers of pain and exhaustion to everything since stress can cause flares. I’m still fighting with slowing down my life but I’m slowly learning to pace myself.