Life Through Different-Colored Eyes

Today is the very first time that I dare take a piece of paper, and write what I think, what is in my heart, and the way I see the world to then share it in some platform that I barely understand how it works.
So, I think the best thing I can do is to start with telling you who the hell I am, and the reason why I am starting this journal and sharing it with you guys.

The reason I called this journal “Bicolor” is because I have two different-colored eyes and my friends used to call me “Bico” as from bicolor. This condition is called Heterochromia and has to do with the absence or excess of melanin in one of the irides. Of course, this is not the only story I have heard. When I was a little kid and went to school, I used to hear that I was weird, that I was different, or that my eyes were like some kid’s Husky. To be honest, I kind of liked all these hypotheses, especially because they have the word “different” in them, and to me, that means I get to experience life the way I want to. Because, hey!, if I fail, that is what is expected from someone who lives life differently, right? So, the real reason this journal is called “Bicolor” is because I want to tell you how my eyes have seen life “differently” and how lucky I feel; even when life seems so hard, I’m not fully able to understand it or even when, more often than not, I’m feeling a little down.
My name is Sergio Muñoz-Azuela; I am from a small town in the north of Mexico called Torreón. I am an entrepreneur and the founder of a company called Armuars, which I will tell you more about later. I have been a Dreamer for as long as I can remember. My entire life I have been an idealist, but most of all, I truly believe that if you dream something, no matter how hard or how impossible it seems, where you come from or how you look, if you work hard, if you stay true to yourself and you are brave enough, you will make it.
I have no doubts that one of the most beautiful things in life is to imagine something and then seeing it come to life. I know everything sounds idealistic and beautiful, but I know exactly how hard it is because this is how life has been for me. Ever since I was 19 years old I started pursuing my dreams and living this way. I chose the apparel industry to build what was in my imagination. There was nothing more exciting than imagining how a brand of mine would look like — picking a name for it, creating the brand´s image, imagining the clothes and going through the process of making them. I always knew I was picking a very tough market, especially for the small guy. Anyways, people liked my clothes and, most importantly, I loved them, and I loved my job. That was more than enough for me to keep on going. Life is very tough when you choose to live this way — risking everything, failing, getting up again, failing again. Even worse, seeing those closest to me lose faith in me and feeling alone sometimes. This situation is exactly where I am right now, I’m struggling to keep on going, to keep on fighting, and to keep believing. This is the reason why I am writing this journal, to look for inspiration from other people’s stories to remember everything I have been through and how I always keep fighting. I know that in order to live this way, you must overcome a lot of things, like being scared or feeling insecure. I have heard entrepreneurial rock stars say that they were always very confident, that they were never scared, not even when they struggled. I seriously have no clue how they achieved this, because to me, it seems impossible not to feel scared or insecure, especially when your dreams are on the line and you are risking everything to achieve them, to see them come true. I even believe that feeling this way is a human condition, especially when so much is on the line. When you love something very much and you are struggling to get it done; when every day, every mistake could be the last mistake. I am sure this will be a long journey and I really hope it is, because even while struggling, struggling means that you still get to keep on going, that you haven´t failed yet.

I hope there are a lot of you out there listening or reading this journal because I would love to connect with you, get inspired by you, get some knowledge from you, to get cheered up by you, to get feedback from you…
In this journal, I will be writing about how I have traveled the world pursuing my dreams, how hard it has been to still be fighting for them. I will be sharing stories of amazing people I have met around the world and how they have mentored me. All I hope for is that you connect with my story, that we can inspire each other, and most importantly, that we walk this journey together.
