A large part of Christianity’s problem is that it was hijacked by people who were (and still are) more interested in maintaining their stranglehold on power than on actually following the teachings of Jesus. As a neopagan, I get a lot of fanatics telling me that I’m going to Hell for not worshiping Jesus (who would probably have been the first to say that Adonai, not he, is the one to worship) and yet claim that God is love. There’s a reason why I consider Giordano Bruno to be my spiritual brother — one of the things he said before being burned at the stake for heresy by the Catholic Church in 1600 was asking why Jesus was able to win followers by giving money to the poor, feeding the starving, healing the sick, and so forth while his followers had to resort to torture, terrorism, and murder. Then again, when you see street preachers shouting at people about how they’re going to burn in a lake of fire for all eternity for not going to the right church, is it any reason why many people have a distrust and dislike of mainstream Christianity, and why attendance rates at churches have fallen substantially?
My greatest fear is that the ones who stay in modern Christianity won’t be the ones like you that practice instead of preaching, but the moralizing hypocrites who spew vitriol at anyone who doesn’t make a show of being “holier” than everyone else. Like the Pharisees, they are “whitewashed tombs”, indeed — pretty on the outside, full of rot and corruption on the inside.