I’m somewhere between gender neutral and a transman. Maybe what people call a demiboy (and I’m not out beyond the anonymity of the internet and my closest friends and my partners), and I hope it’s okay for me to comment.
I remember those Maury episodes. I was probably fifteen. I even remember an episode of Dr. Phil talking about trans people, and they discussed a trans man. And I fantasized for sooo long about just… disappearing. Coming back new, like a switch was flipped. Surprise everyone. And wonder how I could be this person, who talk shows used for entertainment? For ‘drama.’
Seeing this, seeing you who had a different (yet somewhat similar) experience, makes me lay back to think. Tear up with the shared memories, the hiding. Wonder if I’ve said or done something to hurt someone without meaning to.
I’m not sure I can articulate any concrete thought other than thank-you. From the deepest part of my heart, thank-you for sharing this. I am going to do my best to do better.