I AM: Addict

Art by: Nicksgood

For those of you who don’t know, I am an addict. With that being said, don’t limit yourself to what an addict can be. If you find it hard to understand what an addict can be, here’s the context of the definition.

Addict (verb): to habituate or abandon (oneself) to something compulsively or obsessively

Are you curious? If you are you can stay. If you aren’t you can go. You’re standing at the threshold of a decision. Should you stay or should you go? See that’s just it, that contemplation is at the root of every addiction.

Living alongside addiction is intention. Whether one wants to think less or think more, an intention sparked action. One of the few things we can’t be stripped of is our intentions. Could we state that if an addiction has a positive intention it could be a good thing? Truthfully, I don’t believe there is such a thing as a “positive” addiction. In the end an addiction is an addiction. When one is “compulsively or obsessively” involved in something emotionally, they arguably abandon some part of themselves.

So, my addiction, to others may seem like a harmless issue. The intention is what makes it unhealthy. I work hard on myself which leads to me being hard on myself. I study, read, and strive to be my best. To the naked eye that looks healthy right? Not entirely, it’s become an addiction of needing more. It’s pushing restlessly toward filing a void in search of being happy; forgetting that we have everything we need to be happy. Constantly find myself being reminded that feeling is locked away in a beautiful piece that rest near the middle of our chests. Locked away by only one thing, our understanding to release the magic stored within it.

Hoping you find yourself now resting your hand over your heart. Love isn’t something that can be told. There’s a reason for that, it’s a feeling. When someone or something loved goes away we are forced to learn again that feeling. The intention of love is something my addiction of being the best has pushed me away from. We’ve all been somewhere, but the common ground we can all relate on are the feelings we’ve felt. We can all act with the intention of love. So to you I share a flaw with the intention of spreading love.

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