My Very Last

Today I was approached by a complete stranger

I was asked to help another in need

But this time it was a little different than it had been before

You see my mind wasn’t in the right place to begin with

My problems had taken over my train of thought

And I was in no way prepared for what God obviously had in store

I have been down on my luck for quite a while now

If it wasn’t one thing it was another

I pretty much tried to stay out of dodge and hidden behind my own wall

But today I had to make a “public appearance”

And I was in a place I hadn’t planned to be

And I did everything I could to get in and out without any issues at all

But as I stood there thinking about all I didn’t have

That’s when this stranger approached my side

He asked for what I knew was all that I had left

My eyes began to swell

And my throat began to close

And My heart began to beat as fast as a drum in my chest

You see normally, for me, I wouldn’t give a second thought

I’m one of those to give the shirt off my back

Because I know there is no reason to not lend a helping hand

But this time, at that very moment

I just couldn’t get past my own needs

I was too far in anguish about my own requirements and life’s demands

I told the stranger No, and turned my back

And I could feel my soul start to weep

I suddenly felt like a failure, a loser, a fraud

Then I heard a voice remind me so clearly

You don’t say to God heres my problems

You have to say to your Problems here is my God

So I wiped away my tears and guilt

And turned to find that stranger

I was going to bless him with what he had asked

I left that place completely empty handed

But my heart had never been so full

I had never been so grateful to give.. My Very Last