I get why you feel that way about your job(or rather former job). I sometimes feel that way about mine too.
When I graduated college in 2007, I got a GREAT job at a group of radio stations. I was making more money than I knew what to do with…so I blew it all! I moved out of my mom’s house at 23 with a roommate, I spent $400 on a dog, who I loved dearly. I spent money on binge drinking over the weekends, shoes, clothes, a brand new car. I was DUMB with my money. But overall I was a smart girl, knew my limits. My roommate lost her job, she had to move out, I knew that I couldn’t live in the apartments that we were in all by myself. So my cute dog and I moved back in with my mom. It was terrible, but I was saving so much money, at that time I had also stopped drinking, so I was saving money there. Still I wasn’t rich by any means.
Fast forward a few years…I’ve worked at all sorts of jobs, all (except one) making WAY less than I was when I first graduated college. What have I learned in the almost 10 years it’s been? Money is NOT everything, success is NOT everything, living alone is not a marker of success. Sometimes you have to do the things you don’t want to do in order to make a better way for yourself in the long run. Again, I’m back in radio making a lot less than my first stint, but by the grace of God, the bills get paid, there isn’t much room for anything else. Do I enjoy my job all of the time, NO. Do I hope to work less and spend more time taking care of my family, yes, but to do that, I need to sacrifice for now.
So my suggestion to you, would to truly evaluate what you NEED right now, not what you WANT. Do you NEED to live all alone-no, and roommates can be great. Do you NEED a car-probably not, living in the bay area, I’m sure biking or walking places is a good option. Maybe you need to bite the bullet and ask FAMILY for help, not strangers. You can also collect unemployment while you search for you next, very likely entry level, job. Keep your head up, it all turns out just fine, this might just be a harder lesson than some to learn.
Remember to humble yourself, or you will be humbled by someone else.
A good word from the Bible, “ Pride comes before destruction,
and an arrogant spirit before a fall” Proverbs 16:18