What does a girl gotta do to be loved?!
What do I need to do? How do I come off as an awesome woman that a man can love for the rest of his life? I try, I change, I love. I have tried waiting to have sex so he “respects” me but I’ve also tried having sex on the first date. I’ve tried older men and younger men. I’ve tried women. I’ve tried all races. I open my mind and allow them to see who I am, and nothing. Used and disappointed. It’s like I wasn’t meant to be with anyone. You know that feeling you get when you go on q date with someone you’ve been talking to for weeks and then finally meet and it just wasn’t as good as you thought it would be? Or maybe it was better! Yet when you get home an start texting or talking over the phone, the connection is lost.. like you never met. Like you never knew each other. Maybe it’s just me? Or maybe they don’t feel good enough for me. I get too serious too quickly and I think that scares men away.. but I am ready, I want something serious. Something that makes me stay up till 3 a.m. just thinking about his smile and replaying his handsome voice in my head. Someone who loves my son and I both. Maybe I ask for too much or maybe I’m just looking for the wrong things.