BPD or Borderline Personality Disorder aka Emotional Instability Personality Disorder is a psychological disorder that affects the way you feel or think about yourself and others. Consequently, this includes self image issues, severe mood swings and pattern of inconsistent relationships.
A person suffering from BPD always feels like riding an emotional rollercoaster.
According to a study, In United States 1.6% of population is suffering from BPD. https://www.verywellmind.com/borderline-personality-disorder-statistics-425481#:~:text=In%20the%20United%20States%2C%20recent,a%20large%20number%20of%20people.
Here, I tried to pen down the feelings of a BPD warrior straight from the heart ❤️ :
This or That ,
Happy or Sad
Normal or Mad…..
I don't know
Is BPD that bad ?
Messed up on those days ,
Facing a life, that was in dull phase
Fear of getting abandoned
From my personal space,
What I wanna do….What I wanna chase?
Got no clear vision,
Thoughts and words were always in collision….
Anyone can see this by my pathological decision.
Well! It's not me ...it was my BPD !!
Sometimes I walk in pride,
Sometimes I thought of suicide
But no one knows
What's going on inside!!
Because….it was my BPD!!!!
One moment an altruist,
Wait ,what !!
Bounded in BPD's fist
Another moment misanthropist.
So unstable,
Evading without telling something reasonable
Being with someone , the only thing I was unable.
And one day…..
I washed my ''borderline'' smear,
Erased my "abandonment" fear
Filled my soul with comfort and cheer.
Conquering my inner strife,
I started living a new life.
Though, it was just emotional instability,
I thought it, rare capability.
All this was in my mind,
But now i realised
O God!! I was trapped in double bind…
I was trapped in double bind…..
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