She needed a hero- she became one by embracing her “power”!!

For the longest time, I didn't understand the word "power" infact I used to dread "power" 
It felt so perfect feeling "powerless" and a "victim" as it would mean being away from being powerful! I had weird association of power. Power meant the following 
- oppressing and exploiting others 
- bullying people 
- enforcing and imposing own will on others
- to attract severe implications

God!!!! Scaryyyyy-! Association I "had" 
It's no wonder I invited extremely difficult people both professionally and personally who repeatedly made me feel "powerless" and it felt so safe to feel powerless! 
Somewhere in the bargain, deep down I knew by choosing to be powerless and helpless I am choosing to be "less" of me and more of every other facet that only dampens my spirit- and weakens my resolve and endangers my individuality. So I met this person called "xyz"(whom I consider my biggest mentor till date) who stirred a process in me that made question my own beliefs around power! By pushing me to the walls, by rejecting me brutally, eroding my self confidence, crushing my self respect- xyz actually led me to take on an introspective journey and forced me to reflect on my choices. For once I realised being a victim wasn't serving me anymore and giving up my remote control to the world and letting people take decisions for me- wasn't working for me!! 
There came a stage I got tired fighting with powerlessness and felt I stayed in that stage for eternity and the only way I could survive would be the step out of it!!!
The only way I could receive myself and establish an intimate connect with myself would be by "stepping into my own power and embracing it" 
Then started another rewarding journey wherein by taking baby steps I decided to taste the feeling of feeling powerful. The associations i had about power- began to change! 
To feel powerful- meant 
- taking charge and responsibility of myself and circumstances
- being able to navigate through the tides of my life effortlessly 
- being able to experience "independence" and it felt kickass!!!

So every step I took to get more and more powerful I only realised how easy it was and how important it was for my growth!! 
Being powerful also meant I now have my boundaries wherein unwanted people and situations are filtered out! 
To be able to declutter and maintaining a healthy distance with toxic people feels so powerful!! 
To able to protect my own self interest and refusing to be the "punching bag" I used to be earlier - feels liberating!!!!

So I no longer wish to get sympathy or pity myself by being a victim-- I replaced that by - I am fully aware of my power and potential and it feels like my second nature. Infact now there is nothing to "do" all I just have to do is "just be"

And this feeling of looking after self and safe guarding myself - feels so comforting! I no longer need my knight in shinning armour to rescue me. I rather attract my "hercules" and go horse riding with him!!!!

Truly stepping into my own power is an "organismic high"