Life after separation

I usually don’t discuss my private life on social media. However, in this case, I feel that doing so may help someone else to heal. I am a mother of 3 boys ages 8, 6, and 1. I separated from their father while I was 5 months pregnant with my youngest child. We separated before but it was temporary. This time, it’s more permanent because infidelity took place and that is one of my non-negotiables. So I found a cheap apartment in a rough neighborhood and drove my children to school so they didn’t have to transfer schools at that time. It wasn’t easy at all. A lot of days I cried myself to sleep at night because I didn’t want my older boys to see me hurting. I often prayed to God and asked him “what am I going to do with another baby?” “How will I be able to take care of him?” I spent a lot of days depressed, but when Kayden came into my life, everything seemed to change in an instant. I remember shortly after having surgery (c-section) and seeing his face for the first time, we made eye contact. His almond-shaped eyes melted my heart instantly. Every ounce of sadness faded away. I honestly feel that God allowed me to carry and raise Kayden to help me get through this painful separation. No matter what my husband did, I loved him and still do. So leaving him made me feel as if a part of me were dying. I’m thankful that I didn’t stay in that frame of mind. Kayden’s face and smile helps me to get through a lot of tough days. Don’t get me wrong, I love my two older sons, Ke’Anthony and Khristian, but as you may know, the older children get, the less they seem to need their mom. I said all of that to say this: things may look rough and seem impossible today, but it’s not permanent. Your situation is not PERMANENT. It will get better. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, keep moving forward and look ahead to a brighter future. I am a witness that the best is yet to come.