This practically moved me to tears. While it is comforting (I feel guilty for saying so that it is) to know that even those a decade older than myself do not quite have it all together it is also a disheartening reality. Like you said, some of us were born having to fight harder. I am so sorry that you’re status as a citizen is in question and adding another factor on to your stress. If it means anything at all I think your writing is excellent.