Oh Thom, please know you are close to my heart and I am sending you comfort and love from California. It is a slow painful journey through grief and I can’t begin to imagine what you’re going through, though I watched my sister go through it when her husband died at the age of 52. I won’t tell you about her journey because it is not yours, except to say that she is okay today and she knows who she is again and I wish the same for you as you begin to heal and move forward. I’m so so sorry for your loss and your grief.