Grief is more than permanent, I think; it becomes a part of the very fabric of who we are. It is the backdrop to everything we do or say, it’s the event by which we measure all our actions going forward. I imagine that if I were to lose one of my daughters, through any means at all, I would never recover.

I’m so sorry you had to experience such loss, especially in that way and at that age. I don’t know why organized religions — not just Islam but others — are so unforgiving of suicide. Perhaps the founders never suffered from depression? People take religious dogma as the voice of God / Allah, forgetting that human interpretation and translation was required. I don’t see how a God worth following would allow for such deep and often long-term pain and no way to circumvent it. But then, if society were more understanding and supportive of mental health issues, perhaps it would matter less.

Peace be with you; beautifully written.