A letter to my husband

Shihana Fathima
Sep 5, 2018 · 2 min read

On his 80th birthday.

My dear love,

I am so glad to have you in my life. Did you remember our union? It was just a dream come true, against all odds. While our parents blessing us, your dark deep hazelnut eyes were the filled with the drops of dreams and hope. From then, those sets of eyes become mine.

It’s your 80th birthday coming. We are together for several years. I couldn’t find another man in my life who is capable of caring and loving, as you did. So long. Our wish lists are almost fulfilled. Nothing left unsaid and undone.

But here, I am making some confessions. I am sorry if I hurt you in these long years of our love. I really didn’t want any single day with your hatred. But sometimes, due to my own mistakes, I welcomed your hate.

I couldn’t make our world as beautiful as you dreamt. But I tried my best. Any degree of variation from your dream, is just because of Reality. In our imaginations, we often neglect the small value variables, which also need to be count. I apologize. I loved you very much. But sometimes I got irritation, I got anger and I got small amount of hate on you. You are the mixture of everything I felt.

Sometimes,when you want to bury your insecurities deeply, I couldn’t give my shoulders to weep. On those cuddling nights, when our eyes want more, sometimes I couldn’t make it, as you wished. In the book of our love, when every pages are written with care, sometimes I couldn’t pen down a single word. When your heart beats need to synchronize with mine, sometimes, I couldn’t.

I couldn’t make our life beautiful. But I tried.

These long years with you is a taken moments for me. Taken by Someone whose love and effort is unconditional. I will live for you rest of my life, with loving you every moment. I will make more effort than yesterday, in every new day. Thank you for giving a part of your soul to me, to dissolve in you.

Lots of love and gratitude,

Wifey.

Shihana Fathima

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