Ditto on this. Reading this reminded me of high school and my general attitude to learning environments that don’t let me engage them how I want to and don’t keep me interested.
Now that I’m adulting, or some semblance of it, it’s much harder to decide to not be medicated but I joke that at work my brain is my biggest asset and my worst enemy, depending on what day of the week it is.
I’m still managing it in my own way, without ADHD medication, because I hate how being medicated makes me lose all of my weird quirks and makes my brain too focused
How’d you decide to pull the trigger? When did the cost of your brain finally outweigh the benefits?