Shilpaneemasingh
Nov 6 · 3 min read

When i expressed my feelings to him !

It was summer of 2002 in Mumbai when I saw him for the first time in college. we were in the same class doing MBA in marketing.he was 23. I was 22
It was the day of presenting powerpoint presentation to the class in supervision of a marketing professor .
Everybody in a group of 4 were presenting their case to the class , I sat through all the presentations highly bored, my head down until the last one , this guy was last to present his group case , I heard a husky, a manly voice greeting the class , I heard myself saying wow..my head went up to see whose voice is this?
I see a tall dark handsome guy presenting his presentation in the most humorous way , everybody laughed ,I laughed the most .instantly I liked him.
It was lunch break , I walked upto him in canteen, introduced myself ,discovered ,we both belonged to the same state (Madhya Pradesh) . felt great something in common. In the very next minute felt awful when he told about his girlfriend who he is engaged with hails from same place as mine .
Who gets engaged at the age of 22 ? I thought .

Anyway without any hopes i moved forward.days went by , my internal weather was stormy , my attraction for this guy was not dying in spite of knowing all the facts about his girlfriend from him, also seeing him read letters posted by his girlfriend.
infact when I visited my hometown , he came to meet her and also introduced me to her . my first reaction “ god she is pretty “ I don’t stand any chance .why would he ever love me?
I found him funny ,intelligent ,mischievous ,matured ,caring ,responsible, Famous guy in the college, and a great human being.

back to college , my feelings for him kept on getting stronger and stronger but all locked inside me ,by the end of 8 months we became good friends , I knew he found me unlike other girls in the class.(he said u are not a typical girlie girl with mood swings n all).talking, laughing together non stop , doing pranks in classroom we became buddies
We started sitting together in the class . if something is there in your heart it will show up somehow someday, without me doing this intentionally my arms would always be close to his arms on the table (very subtly) little touch above the wrist . few days later it became intentional .i would not take my arms away from him neither would he and both pretending to listen to the professor but I knew and he knew something was cooking inside .

He used to take me to my dentist on his bike ( I had my braces on and monthly visit was required) the travel on his bike was the best feeling ever, I used to hold him tight as he would drive fast intentionally (he still doesn’t agree) which used to give me another chance to feel close to him .without realizing we started spending days together .

Now I found a particular subject very tough to understand and exams were approaching , I called him to express I need help , he agreed , I went to his place , he was alone .i don’t remember the subject but I remember what I was wearing (heheh) . it was 1 pm when I reached his place , the room was dark , I was in a red flowery print Patiala salwar suit , he was watching tv , I entered, sat comfortably, started talking how was the day n all , opened the book and he started explaining me a chapter , I honestly had no mind to understand anything logical from him , my heartbeats racing faster than ever.we were sitting very close to each other , both tried hard to study ,to concentrate but in vain , before we could comprehend the situation we were holding each other and the first slow kiss had happened (my first ever kiss) .

When we came to senses ,I confessed my feelings for the first time , told him I feel strongly for you , he said “sorry if I made you feel like that”
My world had shattered . he doesn’t feel for me the way I feel for him (
he dropped me to college on his bike , this time I was arms distance away from him taking extra care not to let any of my body part touch him . he noticed the gap .
what happened next … watch out my next blog

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