Mindful Journey

Gnyma
Gnyma
Sep 4, 2018 · 2 min read

First stage starts when baby takes his first step, trying to be self-reliant for the first time, for being able to fulfill his desires himself, to take what he wants. At that time basic instinct exist in their most primitive form. To instantly move toward what heart desires, no second thoughts, no fear of failing or being ridiculed, just goal and little steps toward that goal.

As the baby grows, he learns about cause and effects, that decisions have consequences, expectations and norms of the society and surroundings of that time; And then doubts start manifesting in the head, to review, being rational, to separate oneself from that entity which just knows to act on primal instincts.

So the million years trained genetically coded dna and the newly acquired rationality to be acceptable in the current environment, battle it out to prove supremacy over the other.

Initially, primal instinct dominates as they are more innate to one self, and they keep winning because illusion of that endless void which it itself created, being filled, gratifies one’s senses. Its only when the consequences of those action start surfacing, and one starts feeling the burden of those choices, scale starts shifting toward the rationality part which then bury down those instincts. But that is only till those instincts will resurface again. And with every battle, rationality keeps gaining insight on when to act and how to find balance between the both.

And we call all of this experience, which builds the life consisting of ups and down, for some more downs than ups and vice versa, all the emotions, all memories, shaping our notion of righteousness and priorities.

Some runs toward the battle, some runs away from the battle, but for only few, rationality develops enough to see the battle playing out as it happens.

And once you start seeing it, you becomes disillussioned.

That doesn’t mean you becomes numb or emotionless, or start suppressing those instincts.

You still live the same life, fight the same battles, gaining new insights. But whoever wins, you learn to appreciate the journey. You learn to enjoy the ups even more and not frowned at the lows. Because you know that the battle will happen again as it has happened multiple times before. One doesn’t feel shackled by the circumstances but is liberated by the insights.

And this is the mindful journey.

Gnyma

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Gnyma

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