Mountain Lake it was…

Shriya Pandey
Sep 5, 2018 · 2 min read

And this time i wanted to find myself again. It was sunny, I was basking in the sun, I was awake before i could sleep. There was an unquenchable pain in my chest. My heart was pounding accross my breast. I have felt this pain before. Same sensations, Same fear, same pain, I had felt everything before. Nightmare I thought but not in dreams. It was the 3rd break up, i had with him. The Tsunami rose in me.

I saw myself standing on a sea shore. Waves are coming towards to swallow me. I felt paralysed. There was no one to help me on that shore.

And i opened my eyes.

I called him to give me another chance. (But for what to cheat for the 5th time on me)

He paused to think and stammered

Diplomat he was

Games he played

I begged him for rescue

He told okay but..

I asked him why cant he rescue from catastrophe within me.

He told becoz he loves both her and me. And chooses her over me.

Sorry was not enough to rescue me

I needed more

I felt as if i died for the 5th time in my life.

But did I die? or did i survive ?

Was there anyone who can save me from my own catastrophes

Yes, Mountain lake

I closed my eyes, as if the breath in me is departing from my body

But..

I was standing on top of Himalyas, looking down the blue mountain lake.

I have never seen aything so beautiful

I was alone there. I felt i own these snowy hills. I own this universe.

Snowy caps adored me.

I never felt so free. I was looking at water and smiling..

And the water smiled back at me beautifully, Snowy peaks stared with love at me. Sky kissed me and the air hugged me.

I opened my eyes, i was not on hills but in his room, sitting next to him, joining my hands, begging him

And I

I understood the beauty i owe to me.

I picked up myself and walked out with silence.

I felt free.

I got the love i needed in the mountain lake.

Shriya Pandey

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