Poem: Nineteen
Recommendation: Listen to “This Town” by Niall Horan as you read this poem.
This song emphasizes how I feel about all of the words below… I hope you enjoy it and, honestly, I hope you can’t relate.
I barely remember who I used to be
The only thing I know is nineteen
It feels like one whole life was lived
I ran so fast that all of the trails went missing
I tripped and fell for your cruel embrace, several times
It hurts revisiting that scenario, oh it does
(And is it even okay If I wish to kiss you now? I must be crazy)
I really don’t intend to be melancholic at all
but the truth is: if you’d call to say “I love you”, I’d fall right into your arms
even if you’d lie; you perfectly know you don’t even need to try
You know that a part of me loves to be shot by your toxicity
But I know there’s another part that you’re not conscious about
A part in which I listen to what my head says, and it says:
“Go away, as far as possible, and, if possible, forever”
And I am a good boy, I obbey.
I barely remember who I used to be
The only thing I know is nineteen
But it feels like one whole life was lived… already
I ran so fast that all of the trails went missing
I ran so fast but I couldn’t run from this feeling
Firm and persistent, you don’t leave
(You never did…)
I wish we could’ve had a chance to dance
I wish we could’ve been just happy.
~ Siarhei Kandybovich
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