One day You’ll Hear

I have felt and known 
The pain you suffer
I hope to know 
Your happiness better.

My understand my bane 
Letting logic kill my mind 
Sanity is a lost fantasy 
Calm drowned in insanity.

I listen to your hopes 
Unable to voice my own 
A chronic conflict; 
Lynching my existence.

I’d like to feel real 
But 
Expectations are clouding 
My true needs.

One day you’ll hear
My mind’s voices 
Until I then wait 
Thinking anxiously 
Smiling nervously.