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Emo Shimizu
Aug 23, 2017 · 1 min read

so I’m sitting here getting high, wondering if it’s a waste of time.

What’s “it”?I can’t wonder about “it” if i don’t know what “it” is…

I just spent a couple hours being artistically productive so what exactly am i pondering as a waste of time…art? getting high? life in general?

“It” could be my art.. most productive I’ve been in a while and I feel little satisfaction.. probably because I suspect I won’t finish my project, due to my chronic procrastination and self sabotage …so it could be perceived as a waste of time to even try…

I noticed “it” isn’t getting high. I consider that a better way to spend time than eating..which I’m currently avoiding.

Is life in general a waste of time? This is a silly question since life’s worth should be greater than time’s worth. Time is our way of compulsively measuring and obsessing over how much life we’re waisting. Ultimately worthless.. It’s nothing but a unit we measure life with.

Maybe my time is a waste of life… does that even make any sense? I don’t think so… so what is it that I’m waisting my life with?

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Emo Shimizu

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25/F/Canadian. 親日. Consumed by my addictions.