none of this has much significance

Emo Shimizu
Aug 8, 2017 · 1 min read

I’ve lost track of how many cups of coffee I’ve had. Let’s take another hit… and probably make another espresso…and take another hit.

I want to be set free…I am trapped and confused by life. This is the consequence for decisions that guided me to this point. I always end up in this state alone, drowning out thoughts with loud music and bong hits. I spend too much time in the past sometimes and get stuck there… but I have a hard time guiding where I’m going without understanding where I’ve been.

I’ve grown worried about the amount of things that have disturbed me. There are the ones that happened to me, but what I find more traumatizing are the things that I could have prevented, but didn’t.

Over the course of my life, I’ve lost a great amount of faith in humanity. I used to just lack faith in myself. I wonder which is a worse contribution to society…

Out of everything I just wrote, none of it has much significance compared to the things I’ve been thinking.

Emo Shimizu

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25/F/Canadian. 親日. Consumed by my addictions.