Speaking Of Miracles

Dearest Cathy,

We’ve known it for a while, but I decided to wait for the official announcement on their website to share the fact that I’ll be doing a TED Talk at TEDxDHBWMannheim. YAY!

It’s this Saturday. And welcome to the nervousness that just kicked in. YIKES!

Funny how both the excitement and the tension have equally been gaining momentum over the past couple of days. Well, you must know all about that. You’ve been there, you’ve done it, now it’s my turn…

The theme of this year’s TEDxDHBWMannheim is “perception”, and the topic of my talk is “How to perceive miracles”. As you know, it’s a miracle how I ended up being a speaker at this event, but that’s all I’ll reveal here because it’s part of my talk… What I can say, though, is that for years, I have been talking about the miracles I experience. Much to the amusement, surprise and sometimes enlightenment of my friends and clients. Okay, there were those that grew tired of me too, but hey, it’s a matter of perception ;-) And now, I finally get to share my favorite topic with a big live audience!

So, yes, hence the nerves: I’ve never stood in front of such a large audience before. I’ve led plenty of workshops with up to 30 attendees, but that’s different. Mostly because I prefer a lot of interaction during workshops, so I never talk for more than a few minutes non-stop. For those who aren’t (very) familiar with the TED concept (find more here), I get to talk for 18 minutes. Less is allowed, more not. Still, I’d like to make a point in those 18 minutes.

According to the brilliant remark my other dear sister, Marja Godvliet, once made I should be fine though. You see, I sometimes get shushed in a restaurant, or public area, because my enthusiasm raises my voice and enlarges my gestures (read: wide arm movements). The shushing makes me feel embarrassed. When I shared this with her, she replied: “Perhaps you’re not supposed to be shushed. Perhaps you just need a stage that matches your loud voice and big arm gestures.” Thank you, Marja.

So what’s the worst that can happen?

To me, not even that I fall silent — I’ll live. Me and my big mouth are mostly nervous because I’d really like to succeed in sharing my idea about miracles. It’s my wish to change the perception of miracles for at least a few audience members.

Anyway, time to get back to work. Practice, practice, practice.

See you at the other side of this experience, darling Cathy. The side where we will BOTH be TED Speakers ;-)

From a place of miracles,

Pauline