I need a writing ritual

The last two days I’ve been trying to relax, because I really need to have as much energy as possible between now and 8 days from now — I have various social and medical commitments to make good on, a lot of fun and treatment and good things I want to be able to do.

But the last two days, my brain has also started to fill will the loudness that means I need to write.

So I get anxious — I need to turn out content, I need to empty my mind, I need to write, but the words won’t come out. I need something.

I am sitting on my bed, because my bed is comfortable. I wrote while I was out, and I feel the need still buzzing. I’m realizing I need a writing ritual.

I need a space to sit, a drink to drink, maybe some music, maybe some silence.

I need to feel safe, and empowered, and ready to focus.

I think I would take myself as seriously as a writer as others take me if I had some kind of structure about it. If I had ritual.

I don’t always need this for writing — like I said, I wrote a draft of an essay on my phone while I was out just now.

But I would I think do better if I had ritual. I think I would do better in general if my life had more ritual and routine.

Ritual can mean a lot of things, but artists tend to have them, and maybe it’s time for me.

Right now, on my bed, I feel safe. I feel comfortable for the first time in a long time.

And maybe “find safety” is enough ritual for someone like me. Maybe ritual creates safety too.

What do you think? What are your writing rituals if you have them? Have you done better with or without ritual and/or structure? What is the difference for you, in this context?

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