“Oh Baby!!!!!!

To all of the “Mother’s or soon to be mother’s” out there:

I salute you for doing what most people may never understand, try to understand, care to understand, plan not to understand or are just simply incapable of understanding. Yes, that is having the “Joy”, “Honor”, and “Privilege” of becoming a Mother. I feel so Empowered! I have never felt more in love. I fell in love with someone I havent even met yet. People on the outside would think that’s so crazy or impossible. It’s like to know your’e pregnant, it holds a bit of anxiety to some, excitement to most, or maybe even hold some disappointment to others. Having the experience of beholding your child for the first time on the Ultrasound screen is one of the most precious, time-stopping, heart-racing, tear-dropping moments ever! Nothing else matters at that point. It’s beyond comprehension! I am 8months now in carrying, this is my first time, and I have had both negative and positive outcomes.

Negatively Speaking

When people that you expect to lean on; be excited and help you, but they aren’t happy or supportive of you? It mentally sends you down a black hole of regrets and terror. It makes you question life. Worthlessness races through your mind, abortive thoughts began knocking at the door. It’s almost like you become lost, scared and feeling a sense of eviction inside and out. After a while it hit me…

“Who Are you, to make me question taking the life of an innocent, yet planned pregnacy??” This is my Moment! My Child! I need to protect my seed against them who be mad that I didnt follow the journey that they mapped out for me. It’s my life, and I will choose my own path with or without them. So many people cant wait to blame anything and everything on your pregnancy, or will try to inhibit you from doing or having certain things because you’re pregnant but I have truly learned to put my child first. He is all that matter’s and I don’t expect handouts or make excuses for any reason.

Positively Speaking:

I have encountered some of the most supportive, caring, nurturing mothers who have stepped up and mothered me through this delicate process. They have made me feel so comfortable, excited and ready for anything that life throws my way! In addition, I have had the help, motivation, and support of my Fiance. He is truly phenomenal and I can’t wait for Jr to see just what I see in his father.

Motherhood is instinctive! We know our bodies, and we truly know what’s best for our children despite those who tells us how they feel we should mother ours. Yes, we will succeed some, fail others, but learn always… it’s not about being perfect. It’s about being and doing the best we truly can for our young’ins until they are ready to go into the world and do their own thing. Thank you for listening.

-Sky