Changes.

Things change for a reason sometimes you wonder why things change or what the said reasoning is, but I do not think that sometimes we’re not meant to understand why these things change in life. They just happen.

For instance, my favourite colour when growing up was red then the next week it’d be green, or yellow etc. But since I was roughly 12–13 my favourite colour has been Purple and it’s not changed ever since I have other favourite colours such as Orange, Green and red, so even though these colours I like they’ve never beaten my love for purple.

The same goes for friends, I had two best friends growing up and they’re no longer in my life, the first one had some honest head issues like he just held a grudge on me cause I told him to go die never spoken to him since and that must have been Bebo days and MSN days so I can assure you that it was years back, however I have only just lost the other, took her on holiday with my mum and I, and she had met our friends from Scotland, she made out to her cousin that we treated her like shit, we only gave out the same disrespect she’d given us, but she went and cried to her cousin, said how we abused her and locked her out…moral of this story is, I sent her a message, I explained basically that at this current time in my life I cannot have anything to do with her because she is not healthy for my mental health, I then removed her from facebook as I didn’t want anything I may say on facebook to be interpenetrated into something else, I also sent her cousin a message after her sending my mum one, blocked her from replying back because I did not need to say anything more to her, I also then sent another email to my ex friend as to ask why she had said the things she had said to her cousin, I didn’t get a reply back, however she did block me on facebook.

And yeah at first I was a bit hurt by it, as I explained my reasoning in not being her friend, and removing her on facebook, I do not see any reason for her to have blocked me, as I wasn’t going to message her, or send a friend request. But now I am accepting that sometimes you just got to let go cause it’s happening for a reason, not to sure what that reason is. But what I do know is its a chance to make my life mine again and think about myself for once.

Changes that I’d like to make

1. Get a part time job

2. Do a course I want to do

3. See the two friends I have left.

4. Go to the gym

5. Make new friends

6. Do more things for myself

7. Do charity shop every monday

8. Drink more Turkish Tea

9. Change my room around

10. Be happy.

Just A Small Town Girl

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“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” — Stephen King