SNATCH GAME. just how much would you SACRIFICE for GLORY.

Kahfawknee
Aug 25, 2017 · 3 min read

Overwhelmed is an understatement… I will say I’m a fan of constantly being progressively busy. But I never actually considered the consequence to my spirit. The sacrifices I have made to do the things I love do come with reward. But with great reward comes LOST. As the climate changes around me and the Universe gives in to my call almost instantly , things are also being SNATCHED away even faster.

In the last two years I’ve lost about 10 family members. Including my Grandmothers on both sides. What really bothered me, was for years I dreamed of capturing their life stories and garnering histories of my tribe. And I believed I had the time.

What really crushed me was when I asked my Nana’s last living sister about the idea and she brushed me off.

As if we ever had a relationship, but now I’m forced to live with the reality that maybe I failed. That my lineage would have nothing to step upon in the near future as our elders vessels gave out before I was old enough to formulate valid questions and even comprehend the nature of their responses.

Now I wanna address that above quote. I will not take her disregard personally maybe she had no idea how close me and my Nana were. But as a MAN collecting the detail I wanted the story to have a feminine divinity. The kind that only women of age, status, and a self renowned power could exhibit. I will definitely revisit this obstacle as soon as possible and also do a better job at having a relationship with the matriarchs in my family.

Back to what I was saying…. Friends I don’t have any in a 300 mile radius. Which sounds like no BIG deal because we have cellphones. But I learned in Middle school just how estranged and misconstrued communication can be thru device. So I really don’t believe in that interaction as anything but a means to connect in person.

My biggest realization has become the FACT that you do have control of your future but that's about it. Literally everything you've always dreamed you can obtain just be prepared to lose a lot of what you once had.

The women who took care of me in diapers visited me today. As i walked her up the stairs and in the house tears ran down her eyes. She’s 82 and her light still shines as bright as I remember.

She told me she never imagined I’d be a MAN…. A man that would helped her after she spent years of her time helping and protecting me. And my heart SANK. There were no words that I could say that could reciprocate the love i felt pouring out of her.

You become obsessed with your peers perception of you. My peers haven't even figured out what they wanna do with their lives, so I can literally miss them. It’s the elders I owe everything to. Without you I would fail to EXIST. Without you I wouldn’t know I was worth infinity. Because we weren't all surrounded by as beautiful of people. In-turn my existence is to cater to the next generation influence a shift and share the things I was filled with by my elders. I was loved beyond measure. And now I’ve found the love they installed in me and I have to share.

Being a source player in this Matrix is unbelievably hard and I’m awake to the fact that I will never be able to just ask questions about this lifetime before the other source players leave the system. It would in someway disrupt the universe. Literally its like you must learn grasshopper don’t try to get the cliff-notes lol!

But all in all I live another day to spread LOVE and eradicate FEAR. The only thing that makes us humans send out NEGATIVITY. without FEAR we are clear to fly……

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Kahfawknee

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DMV Singer/Songwriter. instagram: kahfawknee* My single is out digitally everywhere! Check it OUT!- https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/sweat-single/id1272906208

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