The Whole Journey Matters
Hey, remember how I told you I applied for that school? I didn’t get in.
Remember I was waiting to hear back from the program? They said to try again next year.
I avoid the conversations above. I can handle failure or rejection when only I am dealing with it, but by admitting the rejection, I feel as if I am letting a person down. So, I avoid the whole situation by not telling people what I’m doing in the first place. I admit, it’s a great tactic if you want to keep people an arm’s length away from you. However, if you’re looking to grow a deeper friendship or any sort of relationship, that starts with being honest about how you’re doing and what you’re doing.
I know this feeling of letting people down and the need to do well 100% of the time stems from my own sense of perfectionism. No worries, I’m aware of it and I’m working on it.
Because of this sense of perfectionism, I like to look like I have my life together. For the most part, I do. I’m on a journey to finish school, I’m improving my writing, and I’m working on the actual book I want to publish.
The other part to that is admitting my dreams and what I want out of life:
· I want to move to and live in New York to work in publishing (preferably at Simon and Schuster, but I’m keeping all my options open).
· I want to go to Greece.
· I want to publish The Chair Holders and maybe a contemporary novel.
· I want to have a dog.
Admitting these dreams and goals makes me nervous. What if I don’t achieve them? What if I end up stuck in Texas or not where I want to be? That may happen, and that’s okay. Not everything goes exactly how it’s planned.
I have to remind myself that not only do dreams and goals take time and perseverance, but they take a support system. That is, people you can talk to when it’s not going well, or even when it’s going awesome. I’m learning the importance of others knowing about not only my accomplishments, but my hard times, and my failures. I’ve found that being honest about this helps others open up to me about their own struggles. We are able to connect through this honesty.
My point is: it’s okay to share your whole journey with the people you trust. In the end, those people can cheer the loudest when that journey becomes an accomplishment, because they will know how hard you worked.
The whole journey matters.