This feeling. I know it well. At least one side of it. I think about having a baby boy all the time. I have clothes for him. I named him, but I am open to suggestions. For the longest time, it seemed impossible, too far out of reach, for I didn’t even knew love. And heaven knows I wouldn’t have another without love again. But as I was reading this I felt closer to it for the first time ever. I don’t know if you two can, or will, but I would trade in my boy, if it meant you two could have your girl. I genuinely love the way you write, and In don’t like much.