How Do I Start Writing Again?

I haven’t REALLY sat down and written something in a while.

I still journal — record the day to day happenings, and I list things I have to do and accomplish in my planner. I track how much I spend, what I eat, and when I exercise. I have a list of items to save up for. Some are big purchases, some are small.

But I don’t write anymore. I don’t take the time out of my day to force my brain to come up with something concrete and substantial.

Does everything I write about have to be a substantial piece of work?

My Wordpress is dry, I’m sure. An abandoned URL of first semester senior year thoughts and feelings.

I know why, though.

It’s because I changed my major — my “path” if you will.

…actually…

I didn’t really CHANGE it; I added onto it. I’m an English major. Always will be. But now I’m just an English major with a pre-medical path.

How I’ve grown in the past few months…

I realized money is important. Very important. I opened my eyes and saw how badly the people I’m closest to struggle financially. My parents, my aunts, my family across the world. I saw how that financial struggle — within my own life — affected me. How it forced me to go job-hunting, to eat a little less so that I’d have enough food to last me the week, to say no to hanging out with friends…

sacrifice.

I don’t want my children, my future partner, or me struggling to make ends meet. I want to make a passive income, live a comfortable life, and be happy in that comfortable life.

I want the best for my future.

So that’s why I stopped writing. I was afraid that if I kept doing it, I’d be convinced being an author was the only career path that was right for me, instead of opening my mind up to different studies.

But now I can have both.

I’m an English major with a pre-medical path and I’m proud :-)