Reflections from my past…
‘If I have my life to live all over again’
These days I take a stare into the mirror and regret the me I used to be.
¶ I was that serious student
So studious everyone called me a nerd
John Harris Library was my only friend and aside it nothing else mattered
Except for the ‘Distinction’ I so desperately needed. God knows I was ready to sacrifice my left arm for it
I never made any friend
I never sacrificed for anybody
The Creator was never on my agenda
It was me, myself and my books
… If I have my life to live all over again
I was busy amassing all the A’s
While fellow coursemates were failing and probating
It was never my concern
Life was supposed to be that way I thought
Afterall it is a world of unequal opportunities
Let them read well enough, they will get the good grades too
I didn’t know I was not acting with my head straight
I have made many a mistake in life that makes me wish I could live my life all over again
Sometimes I wish I could put a rush to my own apocalypse so I won’t have to live with this regret I call life. It hurts
Every other aspect of life I paid little attention to
My focus was sole. Just on the goal of making a Distinction.
If I have my life to live all over again
Final Results came out
Praise God, I made it at last
Dream come true
And truly it is worth shouting Halleluyah
But what about my folks spilling and those probating?
What about those I could have helped graduate too?
What about those that gave up because I withdrew myself from encouraging them?
Tunde joined the cult guys because I called him a dickhead
What about those that made the wrong choices because I wouldn’t offer any advice?
What about those that looked up to me and I promised to help them but my promise was a cliche?
What about…? I can no longer hold this tears from coming out
I have made many a mistake in life
That makes me wish I could do a factory setting on my life
And reset everything back to default mode
I wish I have my life to live all over again…
I would act better with a second chance.