To Quit or Not to Quit

I am not a quitter. That’s what I told myself whenever I read a book I didn’t like. I’m reading this book and that’s that. This book won’t beat me.

But that was when I was young and had more time or more drive or more stubbornness. One of those things. Soon, it became “If I make it to page 100, I have to finish this book.” Even if I hated the book at page 101, I was damn well going to finish reading it.

I’m struggling with a book right now. It’s like cutting my way through a jungle of words. I think the author tried to make it accessible, but the details got out of hand. I feel badly for the ladies in my book club, who have never read non-fiction and then got stuck with this book. I asked them to try reading 100 pages, so we would have something to talk about. One of them admitted she was stuck on page 12.

I would like to quit reading. I could have stopped at page 100. However, the book fulfills one of the categories of the Read Harder Challenge. If I quit, I would feel impelled to read another nonfiction book on technology, which may be equally hard. I’m whacking my way through this one 10 pages at a time.

I guess I’m still stubborn.

On the other hand, maybe I should practice what I preach. I told my group that life is too short to read books you hate. I’m conflicted. I don’t hate the book; it’s just hard. I don’t like it when things are hard, but I hate admitting defeat just because something might be a bit over my head. I see myself as an intelligent person. I can understand anything if I just work at it long enough. I like a good challenge.

I should not feel like I’m at war with my reading material.

I purchased this book. I spent hard-earned money on it, and I’m going to get my money’s worth, dammit!

I’m insane. I think I need help.

I’m still reading the book.

What do you do when you realize you don’t like a book? Leave a comment below.