2016 – The Year
The year that changed my life
Every time I heard people getting excited about the New Year, like Omg – 2017 has arrived! Yaya now we will party ! How come 2016 just went like a blink of the eye !
But if you ask me, 2016 gave me so much that even my heart couldn’t take it. It was like I was taken to the amusement park but then in the excitement to go and try all the rides , my parents left my hand ! And I was lost. The world felt blurred,scary and terrifying!
Hard times make you realise- Why? How? and When- this is suppose to be handled.
From handling a dissertation to breakup to a job to a having my life.
The 2016 gave me such a reality check of life!
The person I thought was my life , turned my life into a living hell, the confident girl turned into a self doubting creature, a detective , a spy and a coward! YES, and all because i didn’t had the guts to leave an ass hole. From him it was Lust for my curvaceous body, like he just wanted to prove the world — Look what I have? I have controlled her, harassed her and humiliated the Diva, and turned her into a dead coward.
I wish i could go back and slap myself first for tolerating the shit for more than 3 years, all because I thought it was love and then hit him so bad, that he bleeds to death! I am sorry, But I can’t and I won’t ever forgive you, just fuck off! KARMA IS A BITCH! IT’S COMING FOR YOU!
The girl who never thought she will quit! Actually went on this trip of self doubting and destruction! Not only I questioned myself but my abilities too, with every criticism and difficulty, I lost all the courage to fight my own battles. The Gold medallist was shrunk into her cocoon , that I made a statement — It was a fluke, anybody could have got it! I don’t deserve it!
Just imagine, the girl who was so proud that she was a topper from day 1 till her graduation, eventually in her post graduation went on with such bizarre confessions.
The girl who was proud to walk in college, took part in all the co- curricular activities, stepped back from everything. Like she prepared in her own head, she can’t win ever now.
The girl who never skipped college and would love to go college and dress up, starting getting lost in crowd, she made herself a Loser. She looked lost and lonely.
The pressure of being a topper, was on her shoulders and she couldn’t take it how can someone just beat her, every time she fought a battle with so much passion.She was scared of her first research, not only she struggled but she started going into depression. She would cry, beg and doubt on everything she did.
She end up believing people who said — She won’t get anywhere in life. No one will ever know her. She is not a topper, she is just a Nobody. It was mere luck that made her shine. And sadly she believed in all.
Lost in her own world, she went on to different people for Support. Call it her emotions and stupidity that she attracts darkness. You support her for 5 minutes, she will believe you will all her heart.
Such a dumb fellow, she called her sub conscious mind, which make her inclined towards shitty and loose character people. People who again just wanted to use her or rather take advantage of her foolish nature.
But then destiny had some other plans-
She rose and came up with much stronger person. She completed her research and she was among 3 lucky girls who made it and were the first ones to finish it. No one had imagined the girl who was crying since 6 months and specially form 7 days , how come she completed with such an ease. With those 4 copies in my hand. I still remember looking at name and smiling to my sister. People saw and clapped. And she achieved milestone no.1.
Then it was a time, everyone got even more jealous. She got a Job and that too in one of the leading companies. It was her fate to fight and she fought like a true fighter. Not only her health gave up her , but it was a disease. She never thought she will have a heart disease — the name only petrified her. But she said to herself, if not now, it will never come. So she was successful in convincing her conservative parents and she was in the New city.
The girl in the new city, felt like she is not only free but independent. The spark on her face was back, she felt confident and better. Meeting and sitting with professionals, she realised this is what she deserve and even something better.
How can she forget the day, everything went blurred and dizzy. She felt like this is an end. She was Verbal abused! Harassed and insulted like never before!
The girl who never smoked end up taking a cigarette all by herself! The girl who cri d that day – knew she didn’t deserve such a shit. So when he called back – She said Fuck off! I Don’t need you! Don’t call me again!
And there she realised she deserves – love and compassion. Rather than lust and abuse, so the free bird was free to fly.
A trip to hills not only made her encountered with love but also with her one self! A trek made her believe she can fought her disease and all her doubts!
She realised she can fall in love again and this time – it was her last fall! The fall which rose her to her dreams and the love she wanted all her life.
A kiss that turned two bare people into soulmates! Made them not only close but what they did that night was not sex but they made love with care and pure love ❤️.
The love that made me realise everyday – How special I am! I can do so better and follow all my dreams and passions ❤️
The love that made me believe me – why I compassion is more important than love
The love that made me realise – Follow your dreams and I will never leave your hand❤️
I wish I could go back and answer all those people who thought i would do nothing and can shut their mouth.
So 2016 was like this-
- It showed me how practical the world is!
- No one will look upon your emotions and agony!
- You have to get up alone!
- You have to take stand for your dreams and the life you want!
- So follow your dreams!
- Aim high
Work your ass off to prove your worth!
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