The Beauty in Being Uncertain
Looking Beyond the Chaos Within
I think true innovation comes from finding meaning in chaos, beauty in uncertainty.

We’ve all been on that verge. To not know if you do know. To lie in bed and wish it could just go away, and not be sure if going-away is that which you truly wanted.
That point when you begin to ask the basic questions about you, about life, about us; [yeah we, all of us]:
“what’s true, what’s not?”; “what is you, what is me?”; “what is wrong, what is right?”; “which way from here?”; “what now?”.
That point when we start to unveil; when time, work, essence, family; they all mean nothing to you. At least not in the moment, if it were, in fact, a moment. When friends say, “Man, you’ve lost it!”.
That point people is that which I relate today.
It seems being lost has gotten a bad rap. Lost in mind, and lost in meaning, or our definition of meaning.
But, we need not over-emphasize this, for in a world of seemingly two-dimensional persons who portray confidence, certainty, and control, we the little men, we fight our three-dimensional selves in silence, trying to numb the presence of vagueness or doubt.
We do dread, although frequent to our thought, its poison. We fret in its sight. We shiver, we doubt, we fear the silence, the mist, the fog. They grieve us, and strip us so that we are vulnerable and cold….
…that truly is what we fear….
Although we all pray to be in control of our lives, to be certain of who we are, and what we may become, [un]fortunately;
You can’t connect the dots looking forward, you could only connect them looking backward.. — Steve Jobs
The Definition Paradox
I would love to share my personal experience of elementary school. Early in life, we all had parents really follow-up our schooling. I was privileged to have my mom do that. And mostly she would love to create a structure, schedule, or time-table. Something of that sort for me to follow, especially during the holidays. So after months and years of doing that, and sometimes not doing that, I noticed that not defining how exactly I wanted it made me more creative and productive with how I had approached my learning. It made me read when in the flow to read, and more often, did I surprisingly do.
This example may be highly opinionated, but I just needed to relate to something. Which is just one of many other instances.
And I know we all have had such experiences. Experiences of when answering all the “W” questions, had made goal-attaining tiresome.
In the end, more often than not, when we do achieve them, the results lack the thrill we had so dreamed of. They seem pale and stare you in the face, the way a new pair of shoes do, or some new furniture, after months or labor, savings, and pain-stakes.
But basically, although planning and execution are what makes work more realistic and actionable, it deprives work of what I call its soul: that special feel or vibe.
This is not only applicable to education and business but in all aspects of human endeavor. The work required to get to our goals drown the desire for them. Which leads to procrastination, frustration, and quitting, because we focused on the means to an end. Not how to make ends meet.
We’ve seen it in TV celebrities and personalities, who, after their lives of luxury admit that it was all pain, even with the wealth and fame. But, they aren’t alone, even former presidents, influencers, monarchs, and many great business-men have one way or another shared this plight.
But why?; why work and tick all those check-boxes only to be in pain, and not be known to be in pain? To smile to cameras with a heavy heart. You’ll be successful yeah, but poisoned, by that path to success.
I see my path, but I don’t know where it leads. Not knowing where I’m going is what inspires me to travel it. — Rosalia de Castro
So, what’s the catch?…
….after-all we can’t just live carefree and aimless.
The catch is that there is a cure, or seeming cure, cause I can’t be entirely certain.
But, three things I feel are very timeless to me are;
- Live for the process, not the result. Living for the process would help us live for our causes, even when they seem not to glitter.
- To make our curiosity drive us, but make it work for us. It could just be a great asset to use the curious child within us.
- To be free, in mind, and in meaning. Free enough to not over-define, else we cage our dreams to our current limits of knowledge and states-of-mind.
Finally;
